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there are times that i get tired of everything.
tired of living, crying, aching, hoping, waiting and asking.
is this the purpose of my life?
is this the reason why i'm living?
if it is, then i don't want to go on anymore.

and then you came.
you gave me all the reasons to live and to go on.
you showed me my purpose, my importance and my value.
i want to live, as long as you're here with me.

but then i'm here now.
alone standing.
you're nowhere i can see.
are you hiding from me?
or was i just blind to see that you've been there all along?

i searched for you everywhere
but still you're nowhere to be found
i've reached the top of the mountain but you're not there
my body is trembling...
i'm tired. very very tired...

i turn to look around me
i saw the view from the top
it was captivating but i didn't enjoyed it
cuz it's you that i want.

i walked near the cliff
trying to see the ground below, wondering how high i am from it
thinking... will it be painfull if i fall? or will there be no pain anymore?

as i moved closer to the edge
i tripped over a rock, i'm about to fall,
but a hand grabbed mine
i looked for that person, it was you... yes, you where there all along..

you told me to hold on tight and not to let go
i said i'll try but i don't know for how long
my hands are sweating and they're beginning to slip
i'm letting go now, i'm sorry if i'm weak

but you never gave up, and you tighten your grip
you pulled me up, and i am back into my feet
you still held my hand and i held on to yours
i'm not letting go now and this is my choice:
"as long as you hold on to my hands, i will never let go....."