My Little Box

in this box
your memories i place
happy or sad
i will not embrace


one by one
i gather them all
with every piece
i try not to fall


so locked in a box
your memories will be
away from my mask,
my own world and me

The Mask

she used to be a jolly person
to smile and laugh is what she always do
always happy and never gloomy
giving happiness to those who are blue

but what they dont know
and what she doesnt want to show
that under her smile
is sadness and sorrow

a smiling mask
is what she puts on
"does she even get sad?"
they would never know

then he came into her life
and he took off her smiling mask
he said its ok to show how you feel
whether its happiness or sadness
just show what is real

and he went away
but he promised he'd come back
when will this happen?she's not sure of that
so while he's away
to her old self, she'll go back
again she's always smiling and laughing
the mask, she puts on back

Cry For Help

Her cry for help
Is crying without tears
She's screaming words
That no one can hear


She seeks the light
That's been blanketed by darkness
The darkness that is gloomy,
No colour, just full of sadness


She traveled everywhere
Seeking for the light
All over she went
But its just out of sight


The rain started to pour
From the never-ending sky
The rain seem to be endless
That, I dont know why


Her cry for help
Is crying without tears
She's screaming words
And wishing that someone could hear

overflowing random ideas

I'm here in a place where i dont have any friends that i can call my real ones...
Life here really is hard...
No matter how hard i try to make it simple, it just ends up getting more complicated...
The person whom i expected to be there for me at all times, left me without a trace...
I can't blame him for what he did...
Maybe I'm just not good enough for him...***

I went to this country, leaving him behind...
Trying to forget everything tho, i still carried all the pain that he had caused me...***

They said that true love waits...
I've waited long enough...
I'm sick and tired of it...
Its time for me to move on and grow...
I'm sorry but I'm goin to forget you now...***

I'll try to live my life in the dark...
So noone can ever hurt me again...
I'm tired of hurting...
I'm tired of crying...
My eyes are running out of tears...
And my heart is turning into stone...***

Here i am, in my corner, in the dark...
Living my life the way i want it to be...***

I'm sitting here, all alone...
I saw a glitter from afar...
I followed it, but halfway there, i turned back to where i came from...
I know that glitter is something that can make me happy...
But i know that it can hurt me as well...
So i'd rather not be happy and avoid the risk of getting hurt...***

But as i was sitting in my corner,
The glitter seems to grow...
Its coming towards me...
Why? I dont know...***

I tried to run, i tried to hide...
I have to run away from you...
You're just the same...
You'll just hurt me like they do...***

You came closer and closer...
I tried to avoid you...
But i cant find anywhere else to go...
and when you came close enough to me, you grabbed my hand as if you'll never let go...
You wrapped your arms around me...
You told me that everything's gonna be ok...
No one can ever hurt me now...
So there's no need for me to be afraid...***

I look at your face...
You're smiling at me...
Your smile is magical...
It eases all my pain and worries...***

There you are standing in front of me...
My Knight in shining armor...
The one I've been waiting for...
Where have you been all along?***

You're just too good to be true...
Is this for real?Or am I just dreaming of you?I hope that this is real...
cos if this really is just a dream, then I don't want to wake up anymore...***

for once in my life

for once in my life
i waited for someone
someone that is different
someone that is true**

for once in my life
my world stopped spinning
you came and gave me love
again i started living**

for once in my life
when all my hope is gone
i was ready to give up
and then you came along**

for once in my life
i found true love
forever i will keep you
even times get rough**

for once in my life
i waited for someone
someone that is true and different
and that someone is YOU**

Untitled II

there are times that i get tired of everything.
tired of living, crying, aching, hoping, waiting and asking.
is this the purpose of my life?
is this the reason why i'm living?
if it is, then i don't want to go on anymore.

and then you came.
you gave me all the reasons to live and to go on.
you showed me my purpose, my importance and my value.
i want to live, as long as you're here with me.

but then i'm here now.
alone standing.
you're nowhere i can see.
are you hiding from me?
or was i just blind to see that you've been there all along?

i searched for you everywhere
but still you're nowhere to be found
i've reached the top of the mountain but you're not there
my body is trembling...
i'm tired. very very tired...

i turn to look around me
i saw the view from the top
it was captivating but i didn't enjoyed it
cuz it's you that i want.

i walked near the cliff
trying to see the ground below, wondering how high i am from it
thinking... will it be painfull if i fall? or will there be no pain anymore?

as i moved closer to the edge
i tripped over a rock, i'm about to fall,
but a hand grabbed mine
i looked for that person, it was you... yes, you where there all along..

you told me to hold on tight and not to let go
i said i'll try but i don't know for how long
my hands are sweating and they're beginning to slip
i'm letting go now, i'm sorry if i'm weak

but you never gave up, and you tighten your grip
you pulled me up, and i am back into my feet
you still held my hand and i held on to yours
i'm not letting go now and this is my choice:
"as long as you hold on to my hands, i will never let go....."

Dreams

i dreamt of you last night
a dream that i ever wanted
and wished that would come to life

i am with you and you are with me
we we're together and very happy
but then again i realized
it was just a dream, not real life

it seems so real
that i was deceived
i wanted to stay
but i had to leave

so as i lay myself to sleep
i hope that in dreamland we'll meet
and i hope that this time i could stay
and be with you each and every day...

Untitled

I'm so confused
and I don't know why
I've heard the words that im wishing for you to say
but still, I feel so gloomy.

I wonder how and I wonder why
the simplest things in life can be so complicated
and very difficult to achieve
no matter how hard we try.

why is it when everything seems to be so perfect,
have to be so wrong?
when you feel ready to give up everything,
you end up in having nothing.

life's twists and turns make me dizzy
and I'm getting sick and tired of it
I just hope that one day, these would come to and end
so that my heart and mind would finally come to rest.